I always lead with my heart.

It's true.

I react to everything on an emotional level;

My feelings dominate my decisions.

I can choose to retard my own growth

by giving in to feelings of self-pity

or undue sentiment.

On the other hand,

when I allow intelligence to curb sentimentality

and sharpen my intuitive faculties,

I am unerring in my instinctive judgments.

My emotions

can raise me to singular heights of inspiration and achievement,

but can also plunge me into the depths of degradation and despair.

Much pain has been avoided

when I leaned to curb my possessiveness and emotional dependency.

I am strong-willed and have a desire for accomplishment;

I am a "mover and shaker" in the world,

but not at any cost.

I take charge and get things done

through the power of my emotional commitment.

I aggressively work to accomplish goals

inspired by my own feelings

and also appeal to the emotions of others.

But some childhood shyness still haunts me;

It becomes a trap at times,

especially in some social environments;

still in need of approval and reassurance sometimes,

and requiring tangible proof

before taking on the responsibility of emotional commitment.

I suppose this is a part of me that still needs growing up.

It became important to release the past

in order to move on with the rest of my life.

To learn to move away from negative bouts of depression,

and difficulty accepting life as it is,

and being a prisoner of my own prejudices.

This was possible through deep self-analysis

and deciding on having new thinking patterns.

I have kept many of my ideas and thoughts to myself,

which is often based on instinct or intuition

as well as logic and reasoning.

I have a photographic memory

and a fabulous imagination and an investigative mind.

So things that are hidden have had a special attraction to me.

This is also a kind of trap,

becoming too curious about things that I should have left entirely alone.

Like dejavu,

committing the same error in judgment over and over again.

They say that "curiosity killed the cat";

luckily, this cat has more than nine lives.

Demonstration of this tendency in me could be witnessed at age two,

when I was so curious about an electric mangle that I got caught in it,

giving me third degree burns and scarring me for the rest of my life.

Although I receive many opportunities,

I have learned to create my own opportunities,

when I needed to.

I have had to learn to walk the middle ground

and not become emotionally scarred

by disappointments and difficulties.

I had to learn that success is not only possible,

but also probable.

A tendency to over analyze,

I have had the unfortunate habit

of outsmarting myself on many occasions.

Great traits like keen analytical ability and perceptiveness

can sometimes get in the way.

And take on the form of procrastination.

Looking for hidden motives,

or continually thinking there may be something beyond the obvious

is often simply a waste of time.

Dealing with thoughts and ideas

rather than feelings and attitudes

when direct application is needed.

I feel this is responsible for my technophobic tendencies,

despite the fact that I love machines

like computers, and cell phones and cars.

But I am a good driver, anyway.

My thoughts and ideas flow with amazing rapidity

but I often lack concentration.

The slightest distraction can sometimes knock out my line of thinking

and send me off entirely new directions.

I have an originality of thought

and persuasive powers of articulation,

but they are like blown away with the wind

when I become nervous and self-conscious.

But I always have a great sense of humor,

no matter what.

I have an active, alert and intelligent mind

but need to develop

a more careful attitude, better organization and better judgment.

A tendency to take things for granted,

I have not developed my intuition and used my imagination,

or developed obvious abilities for sports and dance,

so my artistic gifts have become wasted

and my psychic sensitivities never became fully developed.

Laziness and overindulgence may have been

my greatest enemies in the past.

But it's not too late.

I am a social flirt.

I derive great pleasure from intellectual and social relationships

in a great variety

with people from different backgrounds and experiences than my own.

I guess I am a "diamond in the rough", though,

due to my childhood shyness,

but I tend to form mutually receptive relationships

that become so close as to be almost psychic.

I am inspired and inspiring.

My creative abilities and instinctive reactions

enable me to turn abstract concepts into reality.

My greatest hinder in the past

has been my lack of confidence.

I have the physical energy and mental drive

but have wasted time and money on projects

that never got completed

due to my lack of belief

in my ability to get it done.

 

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